Why me?

Biofuel, bioethanol.. Ok i know it sounds so chemistry! But i've been 'involved' with this thing since i entered mos*ti which i found its not actually related to my jobscope, i've been invited to the meetings, workshops n seminar but i didnt really do anything, sitting in those prof group of people, brainstorming about it.. I dont really get it.. Why me? Why am i here? Why? Why? I tried to think positive, its just a knowledge sharing, im gaining something here but at the end i felt bored and useless! Ok enuff.. No negative thinking again.. Boss pls cme back, im lost without you...